Fauzan Erich Emmerling

Everything happens for a reason. I know it sounds cliche but it's true. You may not realize what the reason is now. But there's a big chance that you'll know it later. I've always dreamed of being a pilot as a kid. I grew up with that dream and took a good care of my eyes. When I was 18 and about to graduate from highschool, my Mother disapproves of my dream. So, I moved on and took computer science. One thing stayed. I always take a good care of my eyes, until this day. I got married when I was 24, had my daughter when I was 25 and had my son when I was almost 27. Now I had a second daughter at 31. When my son was about 1 year old, we realized that something wasn't right with his right eye. We went to the doctor for diagnosis and teatment. The doctor said that we'd have to wait until he's 2 years old for futher treatment. The diagnosis was Strabismus . When he was 2, we went to the ophthalmologist. He had his first pair of glasses because his right eye...

I got a new MacBook air at the new company I work at . Unlike my previous MacBook air, this one only runs i5, 4GB Memory and 128 SSD which means I have to preserve a lot of space to have a nice coding rig. I have to be able to code android and iOS on this one. Plus, I should be able to hack stuffs on it for my personal fun as well. So how do I deal with that? I need to reserve around 9GB for XCode, 7 GB for Android Studio + SDK and around 20 GB for basic OSX stuffs. Plus I have to reserve the iWork and iLife stuff since this is a company laptop and someone else who's gonna use it later after me. I'm a big fan of music and movies, and the space limits it. So how do I deal with it? Use the cloud. I put all my old codes in a private git repo. I stream all my music using deezer and put all my favorite movies on my Google Drive account. Now I can still have it while I run on a minimal setup. As a comparison, now I have 83.59GB of free space out of 128GB on the new ...

It's been 9 days since I said goodbye to the web company I founded 7 years ago. So far, I found things to be creatively liberating. I don't need to catch up with deadlines. I also found new project ideas swarm all over my head all day long. However, for the time being I decided to ignore the ideas and simply note them down for future use. Maybe this was what Steve Jobs find interesting after he quit Apple for the first time. I realize that to be able to get forward and becoming more creative I need to empty my mind first. Then I can start filling it with fresh things. Just like the picture of an empty plate above, you'll never know what it'll be filled with. I'm still taking a few weeks off programming stuffs while I focus on my day job as an auditor at a bank and giving my mind some rest, especially after that Dengue Fever I had a few weeks back. It's amazing how my vim editor hasn't been opened for almost a month now. A very rare thing to happen....

Back in 2005 I established a company that would define my career in the IT software industry. Emfeld Web Technology, or I spelled it EmFeld back then, was born from my desire to improve human lives by leveraging the web. I built a lot of things during the years, from websites, online stores, online games and also our signature product the intanware. Things were great until 2 things happenned. My team left for a bigger company and my health condition gets worse. I can't be handling all those projects all by myself. So from now on, Emfeld is me and I am Emfeld. I'll use the domain for my personal site and I'll write more things in my personal blog. I'll open source some of our products on my github account . Who knows you can get something out of it anyway. It was a good 7 years. But as they say, all good things must come to an end. And so this is where Emfeld Web Technology ends...with a smile :) Warmest regards Fauzan Erich Emmerling Emfeld P.S: 7 is a ...

Most of the time, we are defined and labeled by what we do to make a living or by what we have. For instance, John, the IT guy or Michael the manager. Sometimes people label people based on possessions. Donny, the Mercedes owner, for example. The way people refer to us that way is actually wrong. Why? Simply because if we lose all those jobs or possessions, who the hell are we? I've always been known as the debater, the auditor or the IT guy but I refuse to be defined by all of those. I am simply a dreamer and a learner, and that is how I want people to label me. You cant take my dreams away from me and I always learn something new every day. Try to brand yourself by what's in you and not what's outside of you. You'll respect yourself better and you'll start seeing things differently. Remember that by doing that you live up to your own expectations, not others. Learn to define yourself! regards -E- A dreamer and lifelong learner follow @femmerling ...

28 is the number this year I know I've been through a lot of things during the period I've had ups and downs I've had laughs and tears I've been drunk and sober I've eaten dust and drank tap water I've fought my way through a lot of obstacles I've seen my closest people passed away I've gotten married to the best person in my life. I've had two wonderful children. I've had so many other experiences that I can't share here. Moreover... I'm thankful for all the experiences, good or bad.  I'm thankful for all the people supporting me all this time and I'm thankful to God for letting me live this wonderful and colorful life and here's to the best 28 years of my life... Happy birthday me -E- follow @femmerling on twitter

Happy Valentine's Day People! It's February 14 and everyone's busy buying chocolates and gifts for their loved ones. I'm not one of them though. Simply because I celebrate Valentine's day everyday. How is that possible? Valentine's day is known as the Love day. The day where you show your loved ones that you love them. To me that should be everyday because I love my wife every single day and I want to show her every day that I love her. I love her from the moment she wakes up in the morning, the way she smiles through her day up until the moment she smiles while she's dreaming at night. She's special and perfect every single day. And for that, I want to show her how much I love her everyday. I believe that this actually applies to a lot of you out there. Perhaps you never really realize it until you read this post. You can do it as well. Simply by trying to make everyday special for the two of you. As if it's your last day together. ...

As humans we face problems day in and day out. This is perfectly normal. However, we often forget that our problems are actually our life lessons. We tend to ignore or run away from our problems instead of dealing with it. Again, this is a natural defensive reaction. Sure, we can blame so many factors when problems occur. Our friends, our surroundings, our work partners, or anything blamable. One thing that you always have to remember is actually look back to yourself. Why? Simply because we can be the one causing the problems as well. It's just that because we have our own ego, we think that we are never wrong. Self reflection is something that you should make a habit. I do it on a daily basis every night before I take a ride to Slumberville. I always try to reflect everything I do from the moment I woke up till my reflection time. Why at night? Simple, you are mostly done dealing with the problems and you are more objective. This way you can judge problems better. I usuall...

Life is actually a very big computer. It works in a coordinated way and it has clear algorithms for every process. Every day is a new program. You start in the morning by planning your day and create a flowchart. Sometimes your planning is kept in a stored procedure, just so it will repeat itself. Then you develop your day with your codes. Life will react to your codes. Your codes are your interactions with people and how you control yourself in doing things. If you use the right codes, things will go smoothly as planned. Sometimes you'll get warnings and sometimes you'll get error messages. When that happens, it's time for you to look back at your codes and debug. This is necessary to ensure smoothness in life processes. People tend to think that we, computer nerds, only see things from a strange point of view. But, when you view it this way, our view is very much human. So living life is actually like a system development life cycle. You plan, design, write co...

Creativity is what drives my life. It is the reason why I took computer science as my major. IT is the reason why I can spend sleepless nights doing my codes and also the reason why I haven't blogged in a long while. I like creating things and IT developers are artists and creators in their own ways. About 2 months ago I met with several people offering investments. They want to establish an IT business venture. I was excited, but then somehow, in the middle of the road, things get bumpy and we cancelled the cooperations. I was disappointed because I knew the ideas we were about to build would require massive capitals in order for it to succeed. Then I spent nights after nights thinking on what to do next. I entered the period I call frozen mind. A state of mind where you feel that you're no longer creative. A state of mind that causes someone like me feeling powerless. I feel that I cannot develop anymore when actually I could. In the middle of it all, I tried to warm thi...

For the past 9 years I've been really tied to technology. Not a day goes by without excessive use of it. Ever since university I'm used to using computers for more than 8 hours daily, mostly coding with about an hour or two of movies, games, etc. On one side, it's good cuz during my university years I need to really develop my skills. But then as time goes by I get too attached to it. This is not good. Back then I used a desktop so the only thing I'm really attached to is my cellphone, still am now. Since 2003, my phone has internet connection and I can get connected anywhere. Thus, my life circles around the net. Then starting 2008 I got my first laptop. This thing really went to places with me, even on my vacation. Sad, I know, but there's nothing I can do about it. I'm simply too attached to digital stuffs. Last weekend, for the first time in my life I had a digital break. I was inspired by a blog post by Leo Babauta, a minimalist. It was nice and I enj...

All my life, I've seen people giving up on their marriage. Each came with different reasoning behind the decision. Some gave up because they experience domestic violence within their marriage. This, for me is still an acceptable reasoning, simply because it is dangerous for the people involved within the marriage circle. Others gave up because they think there are violations in marriage commitment. Economic conditions seems to be the dominant factor here. Personally, I think it sucks when a marriage ends due to economic reasons, simply because economic conditions go up and down in family life. You need to adjust to those conditions and support each other. Now the biggest marriage breaker is actually a simple word with a powerful effect, COMPARE. People tend to compare their couple to other people outside of their marriage, an ex-lover for instance. This creates an imbalance situation and it will not be healthy for the marriage itself simply because your spouse will feel hurt. I...

  People tend to get tied so much with their past so much that they can't let it go. Some because of good memories, some because they're afraid of moving on, and some because they feel so much pain in the past. The past seems to haunt us in our daily lives simply because we cant let it go.  Once I was in such situation where as a brokenhearted guy I seemed to have lost everything and lived in my past. My surroundings are all greyed out and all I can see was who I was in the past. This goes on for months and it slowly deteriorates myself. But then, I get to a point where I finally put my mind on facing myself and all the realities faced. I took a risk. A risk that almost killed me in places I don't even know, I mean literally nearly killed me in an accident.  That risk I took paid off.  I rediscovered myself simply because I can let go of the past and getting prepared for a fresh start. I then live a new life, free of regrets and things that are holding me back....

I was searching for Usher's You'll Be In My Heart video on youtube to share with my friends at an internet forum when I saw a part of the video with this sentence: "Real love stories never have happy endings because real love stories never end..." I stopped the video and spend some time looking at the sentence. All my life, I've been filled with people's words that love would end in a happy ending. Movies, ever since our childhood, taught us this as well. At the end they live happily ever efter. That's a happy ending. So what defines a real love story anyway? Is it a story of a married couple living together for more than fifty years and passed away in peace together? Will it be a Cinderella-like story? Or could it be the story of Romeo and Juliet? I beg to differ in this case. I define a real love story as two people, loving each other with all their hearts no matter what happens and accepting each other the way they are. They can be together or not...

  Sometimes I see life as an interstate highway. It's full of people heading to various destinations. Some headed for the same exit, some others just follow in the way, and even a lot are heading against your way.  Just like a highway, interstates have entry points and exits. The one thing that didn't really happen a lot are big intersections like you see in the picture above. Both have promising destinations but you can only choose one. In some cases, you'll never see the intersection again after you make your choice.  This, in real life, causes dilemma. Some people stopped for along time at the intersection to weigh their chances on picking each direction. Some got stuck for a very long time, some even decided not to continue the travel. Some others wished they can choose both. I'm currently in an intersection where I have to choose. Now, I choose to stop and weigh. Both directions will come with great consequences. Some might see me as an opportunist. The truth i...

Just now... I looked back to the past.... To the times when I struggle hard, cuz life brought me down hard. To the times I fell down on my knees and prayers are all I have To the times when I have no one else but myself To the times when I think life is really mean on me But then... I realized that during those times... Life taught me to always struggle for my existence Life taught me that you can always hang into your faith when everything else falls apart Life taught me to really take care of your loved ones who'll be there for you Life taught me to always be thankful in whatever situations so those four lessons will always stay in my mind, struggle, have faith, take care of your loved ones, be thankful live your life that way and may you have a better and more meaningful life Warm Regards -E- Follow @femmerling on twitter

It's January 12, 2010 and I haven't made something I used to make from year to year, my new year resolution. I openned this year with a very happy gift. My son was born at the beginning of the year. Once more, our little family is very happy and all my focus are directed towards my children. Looking back in time, when I was in senior high, about 10 years ago, I set these long-term goals I wish to achieve in life. Some of which are: Get my master degree before 25.  I managed to finish my master degree on July 2008, the graduation was in November 2008, so basically I'm on the right track, going a few months faster. Target met. Get married at no more than 25. I managed to get married on December 2008, or approximately 2 months before I'm 25. So this one is also met nicely. Work for a company that is number 1 in the world in its field. Back in 2008, I worked for Deloitte 's Enterprise Risk Services Group. The ERS is the world leader in security and privacy. So, th...

Surprised with my picture? Me too. For the first time in my life I have hoses going all over my body, yet I'm only 26 going 27 in 2 months time. Did I ever expect this? Never! I'm having some problems breathing and these hoses help me breathe. It's unpleasant and stressing to see yourself turning from a normal human being into a cyborg like creature (okay that one I was a bit exagerrating hehe). Still with this condition I can be thankful and learned some lessons. I thank God for creating the inventors of these machines helping me so I can still survive to see my beloved wife and child and hopefully our child to be born in a month's time. What did I learn? First lesson, pay it forward! Prepare yourself with contigency plans. Think of the worst that can happen to you and how you can reduce the risk incurred. I survived it to thr doctor last night because of this. I'm riding a motorcycle in a bad breathing condition but still able to survive because I prepared the sho...

Jakarta, 28 Oktober 1928 Pertama Kami poetera dan poeteri Indonesia, mengakoe bertoempah darah jang satoe, tanah Indonesia. Kedoea Kami poetera dan poeteri Indonesia, mengakoe berbangsa jang satoe, bangsa Indonesia. Ketiga Kami poetera dan poeteri Indonesia, mendjoendjoeng bahasa persatoean, bahasa Indonesia. Pada suatu hari, 82 tahun yang lalu saat negara kita masih dijajah, para pemuda pejuang berkumpul di Jakarta untuk melaksanakan kongres pemuda. Pada kongres tersebut diikrarkan sumpah pemuda, sebuah janji setia para pemuda bagi negerinya yang mengakui bertumpah darah yang satu, berbangsa yang satu dan berbahasa persatuan yang satu. Titik tersebut dalam sejarah bangsa Indonesia menjadi salah satu tonggak penting dalam perjuangan bangsa Indonesia dalam meraih kemerdekaan. Kini, 82 tahun setelahnya, yang terjadi seperti kebalikannya. Saat kita sudah merdeka dan rakyat bisa seluruhnya menikmati kemerdekaan dan berkarya untuk kemajuan bangsa, rakyat kita malah seperti mengal...

I finally installed Linux in my beloved Acer notebook. After almost 3 years running only on XP, yesterday I installed Backtrack 4 R1 to accommodate my needs in testing the security framework on my web applications. Using Linux is actually not a pain in the ass (just like what Microsoft lovers say). I like windows for its simplicity, graphical ability and the GAMES. But I like Linux for it's flexibility, python friendliness, virus free environment, and how it's speed plus stability in surfing the slowy (not speedy) Indonesian internet connection. Now, I have both running on dual boot in my laptop to meet all my needs. So, when you think you're satisfied enough with your windows, try switching for a while to Linux. Choose simple distros like ubuntu and you'll be amazed of what you can do. Regards -E- Follow @femmerling on twitter