Fauzan Erich Emmerling

Creativity is what drives my life. It is the reason why I took computer science as my major. IT is the reason why I can spend sleepless nights doing my codes and also the reason why I haven't blogged in a long while. I like creating things and IT developers are artists and creators in their own ways. About 2 months ago I met with several people offering investments. They want to establish an IT business venture. I was excited, but then somehow, in the middle of the road, things get bumpy and we cancelled the cooperations. I was disappointed because I knew the ideas we were about to build would require massive capitals in order for it to succeed. Then I spent nights after nights thinking on what to do next. I entered the period I call frozen mind. A state of mind where you feel that you're no longer creative. A state of mind that causes someone like me feeling powerless. I feel that I cannot develop anymore when actually I could. In the middle of it all, I tried to warm thi...

For the past 9 years I've been really tied to technology. Not a day goes by without excessive use of it. Ever since university I'm used to using computers for more than 8 hours daily, mostly coding with about an hour or two of movies, games, etc. On one side, it's good cuz during my university years I need to really develop my skills. But then as time goes by I get too attached to it. This is not good. Back then I used a desktop so the only thing I'm really attached to is my cellphone, still am now. Since 2003, my phone has internet connection and I can get connected anywhere. Thus, my life circles around the net. Then starting 2008 I got my first laptop. This thing really went to places with me, even on my vacation. Sad, I know, but there's nothing I can do about it. I'm simply too attached to digital stuffs. Last weekend, for the first time in my life I had a digital break. I was inspired by a blog post by Leo Babauta, a minimalist. It was nice and I enj...

All my life, I've seen people giving up on their marriage. Each came with different reasoning behind the decision. Some gave up because they experience domestic violence within their marriage. This, for me is still an acceptable reasoning, simply because it is dangerous for the people involved within the marriage circle. Others gave up because they think there are violations in marriage commitment. Economic conditions seems to be the dominant factor here. Personally, I think it sucks when a marriage ends due to economic reasons, simply because economic conditions go up and down in family life. You need to adjust to those conditions and support each other. Now the biggest marriage breaker is actually a simple word with a powerful effect, COMPARE. People tend to compare their couple to other people outside of their marriage, an ex-lover for instance. This creates an imbalance situation and it will not be healthy for the marriage itself simply because your spouse will feel hurt. I...

  People tend to get tied so much with their past so much that they can't let it go. Some because of good memories, some because they're afraid of moving on, and some because they feel so much pain in the past. The past seems to haunt us in our daily lives simply because we cant let it go.  Once I was in such situation where as a brokenhearted guy I seemed to have lost everything and lived in my past. My surroundings are all greyed out and all I can see was who I was in the past. This goes on for months and it slowly deteriorates myself. But then, I get to a point where I finally put my mind on facing myself and all the realities faced. I took a risk. A risk that almost killed me in places I don't even know, I mean literally nearly killed me in an accident.  That risk I took paid off.  I rediscovered myself simply because I can let go of the past and getting prepared for a fresh start. I then live a new life, free of regrets and things that are holding me back....

I was searching for Usher's You'll Be In My Heart video on youtube to share with my friends at an internet forum when I saw a part of the video with this sentence: "Real love stories never have happy endings because real love stories never end..." I stopped the video and spend some time looking at the sentence. All my life, I've been filled with people's words that love would end in a happy ending. Movies, ever since our childhood, taught us this as well. At the end they live happily ever efter. That's a happy ending. So what defines a real love story anyway? Is it a story of a married couple living together for more than fifty years and passed away in peace together? Will it be a Cinderella-like story? Or could it be the story of Romeo and Juliet? I beg to differ in this case. I define a real love story as two people, loving each other with all their hearts no matter what happens and accepting each other the way they are. They can be together or not...

  Sometimes I see life as an interstate highway. It's full of people heading to various destinations. Some headed for the same exit, some others just follow in the way, and even a lot are heading against your way.  Just like a highway, interstates have entry points and exits. The one thing that didn't really happen a lot are big intersections like you see in the picture above. Both have promising destinations but you can only choose one. In some cases, you'll never see the intersection again after you make your choice.  This, in real life, causes dilemma. Some people stopped for along time at the intersection to weigh their chances on picking each direction. Some got stuck for a very long time, some even decided not to continue the travel. Some others wished they can choose both. I'm currently in an intersection where I have to choose. Now, I choose to stop and weigh. Both directions will come with great consequences. Some might see me as an opportunist. The truth i...

Just now... I looked back to the past.... To the times when I struggle hard, cuz life brought me down hard. To the times I fell down on my knees and prayers are all I have To the times when I have no one else but myself To the times when I think life is really mean on me But then... I realized that during those times... Life taught me to always struggle for my existence Life taught me that you can always hang into your faith when everything else falls apart Life taught me to really take care of your loved ones who'll be there for you Life taught me to always be thankful in whatever situations so those four lessons will always stay in my mind, struggle, have faith, take care of your loved ones, be thankful live your life that way and may you have a better and more meaningful life Warm Regards -E- Follow @femmerling on twitter